Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Bleh, Bleh, Bleh

Ever feel like your job gets in the way of your life? There are so many things I could be doing right now. For instance, I could be taking down the glass “cups” around the light bulbs in all the light fixtures and cleaning them. Or I could be raking all the leaves that have blown back from the curb or the neighbor’s yard into our driveway. Or I could be touching up the paint job on the drywall from the plumbing incident, or I could be sorting through the stash, or I could be watching some mindless TV show.

*sigh* All of those things sound more appealing than sitting at my job doing my work these days. I’m just feeling so lazy and I know I’m one of the lucky ones – I still have my job, the people are pretty nice and the work isn’t too hard. But ugh I feel blah about it. And I don’t want a different job either – I just want to stay at home and take care of the kids and house. Katie will start Kindergarten next year, so she’ll be in school most of the time anyway – but I still don’t wanna work.

Problem is I’m completely capable of holding down a well paying full-time job and doing so affords me the financial ability to do a lot of things I couldn’t do without that. DH says I should just quit and we’ll take our house off the market. (We could live on just his income if we stay in this house). I don’t want that either. So add selfish and materialistic to the aforementioned lazy in my list of flaws.

Maybe I’m just PMSing… or maybe its the weather turning all gray and ick... I dunno


Erin said...

I'm right there with ya!

Holly said...

I know exactly how you feel!

Thanksfully, you have a fun weekend coming up!

Melissa C. said...

You are NOT selfish, lazy or materialistic.

Jenny, I have to say, I felt the exact same way. Until I got laid off. I was MISERABLE being an at-home mom. I'm just not cut out for it. And although I'm exhausted now that I'm back to work, and haven't stitched a stitch, I'm much happier.

So maybe the grass isn't greener?

Or maybe you just need to different job that brings you more joy/has less hours?

Jill in CA said...

I feel totally and completely the same way almost all the time...except my DH isn't making the offer to stay in a smaller home so I could stay home. I know it's not for everyone, but I'd certainly like the opportunity to be a SAHM. Sometimes I wish I hadn't gone into a field that pays so well, because if I made less I could probably win that argument with DH. It's tough when I know I should be so thankful for what I have given the economy, as you said. So, take heart, you aren't alone in your feelings! I got together with a friend recently and she and I were discussing the "grass is greener" feeling, which we both were having. Learning to be content is a hard one for me!